Crowing Crow!

Well, it has been really a long time since I sat back in a relaxed manner and listened to the sounds of the surrounding…!

Don’t know when was the last time it happened…must be when I was going to school and those lazy sunday afternoons when you don’t have much to do after a long and delicious lunch of your mom’s….you feel that the television is boring, the songs played on the radio is boring, your walk man is too much of a pain….and then you just sit or lie on the bed that is at few inches away from the window with the curtains playing a shadowy show on the walls and the breeze from the neem tree, is even and the sunlight hitting you hard….you just wish why the school does not work on sundays too……………..!

If this wasn’t enough you just try to think of something nice and doze off into dreams when this crow do not know from where it just appears at the tree and starts singing a lullaby for you….!

You can hear its distinct crowing and adding to this you hear a distant crowing….that is so distinctly very haunting.

Yes, the crowing of the crow is really painful and your heart stirs each time it crows…!

Have you heard those distant crowing of the crow…?

I heard it today again…I heard it very close to my ears but it was somewhere on a tree further from my window and the blocks….

I was reminded of these lazy afternoons…on a summer holiday is a distant village where the sunlight is so much that you can’t play in the sun with your friends and your grand mom and grand dad calling you indoors, you lie on the mat looking at the ceiling and listening to the mythological tales, tales about godliness and devils…and how the gods fought over the evil…and how you should always be doing good deeds to keep the momentum going and how god punishes people who do the evil…!!!

The crows being the incarnation of our ancestors…they bring us the news from the other world…and all we do is shoo it away…and wait for it devour the food we offer it on every thought of an ancestor….!

I am reminded of the lazy summer afternoons and the sun seeping in all its light on to the grounds…whenever it crows!!

Why do we do…what we do?

It is now almost lazy summer afternoons and after a hard week at the office, all you do on these hot afternoons is to have your own siesta or pick up an unnecessary conversation with your own siblings or family or your spouse or friends and end up with grudges that eat up the rest of the afternoon….and evening!

In one such afternoon, when the whole family somehow tries to sleep over the time….I was stuck with this stupid laptop of mine and nothing much to do either on farmville, fishville and cafeworld…all the virtual games on facebook….that only offers you ‘phase value…!’

Hmmm….so nothing much to do, I started pondering over today’s events and found some strange and interesting facts about ourselves – Human Beings….this isn’t a theory or a conclusion…and whatever I say here will not stand true to most of us…but there is relatively a higher rate of occurrence and repetitiveness in behaviour of ourselves…!

Here’s a list of things that I noticed…!

• Advice people only whenever they make a mistake in life and tell them to not do as thus…!
• Always wait for something to happen and then say,”I knew this is going to happen!”
• You slip or have a muscle catch the whole kith and kin knows about it…including those staying far away from you….!
• You always seems to have the last word in the family…!
• You propose something to your friends and end up following what they have to say or do…!
• You seem to make plans and you don’t seem to be doing it…!
• Only when you want something you don’t seem to find it in abundance…!
• You seem to gossip when it somebody’s subject when it is yours, you simply say,”lets talk something else…and come back to you…!”
• Praise somebody whom we like and neglect or talk ill of people whom we don’t like!
• Always scream at people below our age or who are working under us…even when we aren’t angry with them!
• Try to mumble something when we don’t find anybody responding to whatever we have to say…!
• Hang on to the good old days we had and keep saying them to maximum number of people we find and bore them?
• Listen to a song repeatedly even after listening to it a number of times…!
• Find it hard to memorize a thing of knowledge and never forget to remember a celebrity’s birthday or a celebration…!
• Get lazy to play any movie for yourself on a system or a DVD Player or the television but sit watching it when someone plays it…!
• Feel the thirst to drink water when you see somebody drinking water…!
• Feel the hunger till somebody offers you to eat…!

The list goes on and there are more weirder ways of living this simple….life.

Do share some of yours…let me at least know that so many of me…is around this weirder place called earth….that is a planet on the milky way…suspended somewhere in the galaxy – how much more weird that can be!

Do I know you? Final Part!

Ending -1 :

They both were wondering what kind of a situation is this, why aren’t they considered before deciding anything and next time they are not going to let it happen this way. Will control the situation next time something like this happens. Now, the next time will always be a different experience and it never happens as you intend to happen.

I patronize with the reader, who thinks that they should have met the first time or else developed the interaction while traveling up and down. Yes, I agree two strong individuals, with a similar habit; mostly preferences will also be the same, why did they not get together?

What if they get together and turned out to be bitter? What always seems same at the surface need not be the same underneath, do you feel so? They should have got together, now they have almost come at tolerating each other, but why separate? Can’t they carry on the same business as they used to and just wonder what if I had talked to her and she had responded?

Ending -2:

Life returns to normalcy and there is peace within and around. There is nothing to worry about and the natural flow of events takes precedence and life is back with a bang.

She is free to do what she wants to do and continue doing it and he is free to do what he did and does it without a hesitation and life seems to go on. On one such day of office and the usual bus stop, they accidentally meet after a long gap.

Nobody knew why the gap or how it happened, they meet again and this time there is a lighting of recognition and the acknowledgment leads to a wide smile. That does not mean that they will start liking each other and follow their heart instead of head. But, yes there is a certainty of friendship on cards.

But do all friendships end in marriages?!

Do I know you?(Part-3)

It often happens with us, we tend to see a person for more than once and end up seeing that person again and again, even if we don’t want to see them or even have a slightest inclination to have a glance of them….something like ‘selective perception’.

That is what exactly happens here, almost most of the days they find each other either standing there for the bus or in the bus in the mornings or in evenings. But, in due course of time, they become tolerable to each other to almost negligible tolerance to the appearances!

So, this is their external appearances, inside they were wondering what if one day I said, ‘Hi’ just like that what will be the outcome! But neither of them had the appropriateness to start off with and let it be there.

One day, a dull and chilly morning when it looked as if the showers were to happen any moment. At a distance, she walking towards the bus stop, she knew she was late and her steps were hurrying to the stop. Just then her bus zooms past her and she has never seen the bus in such a hurry before.

She was just a few yards from the bus stop and knew in heart-of-hearts that she is to miss it today and there is no escape and slowed her pace. She had walked in her own pace and found the bus still at the stop, surprised she found the doors open for her to enter, for a second she did not know what to do. She regained her reflexes and stepped into the bus in a jiffy. She stood by to find a place and found pair of eyes and lips turn into a smile and recognition.

She wasn’t that dumb, she knew who had stopped the bus and why? She wanted to acknowledge the help, but wonders why I should, no big deal would have come by the next bus. Forgetting all the manners learnt and taught, she just looks away, which widens the smile more into a titter. Well earned one…it relaxed the mind and soul in days!

Pressure from all sides, no remedy from friends, no decision seems fine, no amounts of explaining helps and nothing makes sense, at last have to give in for the requests of the parents, both decide to meet the demands of their respective parents and they agree for a gathering at the brides’ place one Friday evening!

Both of them wonder now, what…they had to give in but their mind does not allow them to do such a thing, and kept on questioning how to call it off! Each one looking for a reason to avoid this situation just wonders what to do.

He gets caught at last minute things at the office and totally forgets about his promise to his parents and they call him after an hour later of the appointed time to ask for the reason…he is so embarrassed never had he behaved so badly. Making people wait for him and not landing up there. He was to be at the bride’s place at about 7 pm.

She being a lesser human being had to be at home by 3 pm and prepare for the whole episode as if it was the only desire in life. She felt like being put to scrutiny but did to bother much to fight over the situation and took it calm. She did not know why or how suddenly she became calm at all this stuff but prepared herself for the ordeal.

She had been waiting at her place for the entrant except for his parents, who seemed to happy at whatever was being offered to them and overwhelming happy at the event and were all praises. They were friends and it was always obvious in a friendship that is lost and found.

The party dispersed and there is peace at least within the people who did not want such an even to occur and the people who were for it just wondered what could be the reason behind the absence.

Nobody seemed to be bothered about the happening for sometime and at the surface it looked at calm and forlorn thing for each party. Days went by and neither of them had the pleasant feeling of bringing things into light again.

Then, one day as a preceding storm that had been building silently under the calm sea, surges forward and destroys everything at its path. Once again the topic took form and shape and this time there was an amicable situation of the same. He had decided enough is enough will just go ahead and take a look and ponder over it and then give a verdict. After all the situations is under control, the least.

Both of them continue going on with their daily chores and are at peace with the situation and the surrounding. The general habits returning and courtesies flow by and there seems to acknowledgment of each others presence. This time it is neither the girl nor the boy who stand in the way to avoid the circumstances and they try to go in for the tide.

This time it is a different set up and the boy and girl are supposed to meet rather than the whole family meeting. So the pretext of seeing the girl separately without the hindrance of the parents gives an extra once of happiness. After all, it is an arranged marriage and who can avoid the event of seeing each other under the spotlight of parents!

At the appointed hour, he sets on his journey delegating the necessary mails and updates to his colleague and on his way out of the office. He receives a call and the simple update the meeting being called off on the pretext of the family and the whole event stands canceled for now.

Now, once a drop is an event is blamed on circumstances, twice cannot be coincidence. So both the families consider it an omen or a sign, and call the whole thing off.

PS: I have two endings to this stupid story, which should I post! :)

Do I know you! (Part-2)

The minute and the hour hand are dragging by and it looks like they are wound to each other and not seeming to move for the past, fifteen minutes. The book in the hand isn’t doing any help either, the mind is still unrest and every now and then the thought of why, how and when keeps popping up?

There is lot of noise around and people seem to gather and depart as the buses ply by! The much awaited bus arrives and both of them get in and get a place to rest their souls.

The weird combo of this bus is that, there are places where you sit facing across each other and they happen to be seated this way…she not able to concentrate on her book, looks out of the window and tries to catch a glimpse of the passing things.

She finds a pair of eyes staring at her from the other end, it irritates her and she looks in the direction to find a man of medium height and absolutely with no sense of ethics was showing a wide-mouthed gape at her that turned into one of the funniest smiles.

She is just averted by the sight and immerses herself into the book or rather hides her face from that sight. When she is about to lift her book again, that thing happened.

A casual glance and the four eyes met for a mere second and there was a strike of understanding, for the pair of eyes caught the sight of the disgrace and happened to aware him of the coming imprudence.

She just looked at the pair of eyes and wondered ‘what’s his problem now’? ‘Who is he to poke into my affairs?’ Thinks a lady-savior or something?! How stupid? Trying to impress or…?! Just need a slightest indication to start off a friendly approach?!

Thinking that it was even useless to continue the argument within herself she again gets lost in her book…the day at the office also turns to be sour and restless. She just feels the day just passes off and she can get back to her place and find solace in her own quarters.

He misses his stop, gets down at another stop and walks back the entire way up to his office. Sometimes he wonders he should start using his own conveyances rather depend on these stupid public transports.

But the thought of smoke, pollution, traffic, and the signal lights, he finds that sometimes being just a passenger helps rather than driving. Driving is a passion for most of us, so is also for him. He takes long visits to places all around by traveling in his own car or using the conveyances that are available to experience the joy of just traveling.

It is not a sunny day, so his walk back to his office was pleasant with music in his ears, the one and only Michael Jackson, singing some of his legendary songs. Hmm…he revered with the thought that this ‘Man’s lost forever’ no matter whatever he was a genius and there is no one who can fill in the vacuum created by him.

Listening to him he enters the office and gets on to his day’s work. However, in spite of his hectic schedule he is not able to shut his mind and their grunts intervened by all these he is also disturbed by the small figure of woman who sat across him.

He was surprised by the pride that lady put up…her stares and her aversion, her stubborn nature…he seemed to be finding a different attitude in ages. Not that he is a professor or his research in women-folk is helping him, he wasn’t interested in them apart from having friendly acquaintances. He wondered why she disturbed him so much, in spite of being a total stranger.

He gets back home thanking the gods in heaven that the day came to an end with great difficulty. He dreads the thought of home for a second and kicks the thought off as after all it is his home, whatever the conditions it forays!

Days roll by and the parents don’t seem to know what their offspring’s conditions are and they set on to the proposal and wonder that is the best for their offspring. There can’t be any good happening to them, at least when they are at the wheel and nothing else matters, when they have set their mind on.

Both, my characters are not against marriage or partnership. They are not for different types of marriages or for any kind of marriage. They are just confused about the fact and the myths surrounded by the word marriage and it’s after effects. They just can’t understand the strands of marriage and it vows and does not want to be in a relation unless they get into it.

They don’t know how to fight their cause and also not like the youth of today who just for the sake of being in a relation pick, choose and drop out of it. Both are developed individuals and know their limits and delimits and all they want is sometime to analyze what they feel worth of and then get into a relation to live life to the fullest.

Today’s decisions are tomorrow’s mistakes to repent! But who listens to men and women of this thinking, they too get lost in the mundane of life. So, did these two…will catch up soon what they did with themselves?

Shyness, frail women!

Hmmm....I know, I am one of them but don't know how much of what I have said here will justify whatever is being said here....I will do justice up to the extent possible...I request the men folk to add to it and tell me....If I was right! :)

Yesterday, night I sat watching television and some scenes from a teleserial caught my sight and was astonished by the scene and the subtlety of it....!

The scene is between a supposedly husband and wife of the serial who have got together alone in a new setting and almost totally head-over heels in love with each other....it so happens that they are now in the complete sense of the relationship called - married life! ;)

So, it was kind of funny looking at what all these actors are asked to do for the sake of acting and they have to put up with the weird acting till the sound of 'cut' by the director and not to forget the improvisations done to the whole acting...Oh! man what a place and action...!

But I was just looking at the screen going blank by my thoughts then suddenly I was astonished by the blushing and coyness of the heroine...and the various out of place dialogues given to her.

That was not all I could not resist the shyness exhibited by her. I was delighted by it and it sounded close to reality and wondered in real life situations...where all does a lady shun her shyness or is there such a thing or is it history with the modern lady who has armored the man's world with straightened backs and long strides...!

My mind immediately answered me, “It does not take away her naturalness at any place...a lady is a lady in all true sense...”

I sat thinking about the various crucial turns in her life where she is really shy to do something but does it by shunning it away and knows...it is all pleasure and nothing but pleasure...!

Read on...and tell me if that is fine and you agree with me! We will go chronologically according to her age; I know it will be interesting to read some parts....but got to read from one. :)

Childhood:

The ages from five to ten are the innocent period of one’s life irrespective of the gender. Here, we can see both genders equally shy and coy but this is very much unique to watch and it tells you that the growing up of the kid is on the block…!

In very few years, these kids will be grown up and you have to be cautious with them. The girl child becomes aware of her surroundings and starts to build a process of her own. She is seen quite in her activities, less resilient and less troublesome…and more responsible.

She seems to rap with her mother, understand her and support her….when she is praised for something she has done…she becomes happy and you can see the sort of shyness exhibited by her…by running away into her room and coming out of it after a long time or hides behind the pallu of her mother…or the curtains are her rescue…or the chairs and tables…or the sofa…or hide in-between the feet of her dad…it is so beautiful…to see it.

In this period of shyness, there is innocence and certain amount of sanity in it and it takes all your feelings towards the little thing and your really appreciate her.

Adolescence:

The ages of 10 to 20, happiness comes very rapidly and with it comes in a lot of understanding and knowledge gain. This age there are many things that open up the knowledge quotient and reduce the innocence quotient similarly to the event of opening a Pandora’s Box and with it a lot of interventions, restrictions, restlessness, and worries…!

This is a period of rebelliousness and the girl child endures a lot when compared to the other gender. She is kept on a constant watch and asked to do a lot of things which she voluntarily or involuntarily does it.

She is aware of herself, her soul, her body and her emotions and they all add more confusion to the already confused mind…!

She is always in company or she is seen talking to her friends most of the time and that is her world. You don’t see her around you, like you used to see, her always behind your pallu…or screens, you she her more outgoing and at more appropriate timelines… there is an amount of secrecy about her.

She is shyer and that we can see…she never comes in front of others and is worried about how she looks. She is more conscious of herself…takes time in her dressing herself or while bathing or taking utmost care off the things in vogue and wants to add that to her already increasing list of demands.

If questioned, she just looks at you and wonders… “Aw! Why don’t mothers understand and give you a nasty look…” all the innocence vanishing from her.

I love this age of hers…she comes to know more than what you knew at her age…kind of scary and all of a sudden all that shyness gone and more openness about her…!

Age of Happenings:

The ages from 20 to 40, is the age of know-all but quite calm and composed ages. This is the period that the inherent quality of a woman – thy shyness plays a vital role in the entire life cycle.

It helps her at various stages of her life and at various conditions of her life. The mind is fully grown and goes beyond comparing the reality to the dream world…! There is a constant search for the appropriate person, place and thing.

The restlessness continues but now it is subdued and there is a constant watch around her and her surrounding is always buzzing with bees and there is great pleasure in it. There is a change in her way of approach, the way she talks, she laughs, she carries herself, there is change in her completely and always in a crowd she wants be heard.

If cornered she is seen at her…her shyness comes in handy and she takes the help of it to the fullest extent.

She finds it difficulty in finding a perfect balance between the shyness and laughter. She knows what is to follow what, but have to be innocent enough to let the whole thing happen. The sly look she gives at you when nobody is watching her, the intense glance when you are doing something not ok and glance at her…the cheerful look at her face, the shyness in her eyes, the pride in her…when you walk with her, the first lunch or dinner, the brush of your hand, the raising heartbeat, the intense feeling of emotion following within her, the eagerness and the difficulty to stop things from flowing into one another….!

The coyness she spreads across her lips when you held her hand in front of so many people and well wishers, she knows that you are the one…and in her pride you can see a tinge of shyness!

The start of the new life with you beside her…the first touch, the first things that you all do together you have her coyness along to do away with till she takes care of you as her own…!

When she makes you promoted to your next stage in life, you can see the shyness in the smile she carries that takes away your breath and tells you what it means to her.

The circle is vivacious and it goes on….from then on!

Known & Seen it all:

The age from 40 onwards is a stage in life when you return to your own careless state and enjoy things that you used to do when you were young and innocent.

Here, you can see her shying away from things that she used to like do…till yesterday, such as holding hands with you, when she crosses a heavy trafficked road or looking at you intensely when you are reading a magazine or just brushing your hair when you are lost in those intense moments or watching, reading or thinking…!

All those moments when you caught her unaware the shyness that used to tingle you to continue with her uneasiness…is no more interesting her.

She is still shy and says, “Oh! Come on stop it not at this stage of life…” and brushes you off as if you were asking her to do a taboo…! She is again aware of her surroundings and does not want to be caught in an awkward position and is always keeping track of what she does and keeps a tab on you as well….!

This stage of hers is so nice that you feel like taking her in your arms and cuddling her up…she brings in all the innocent shyness that gets lost during the course of life and transformation that she takes on….!

Now, she is fragile as a flower and if handled well, she brings in more happiness than the yesteryears that have gone by………!

Are we ready to take the women of your life who goes so much of changes in one life? Was I correct in telling all this to you….come on do tell me!

Comments are always welcome as usual…I would love to hear about your thoughts!

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Dawning Dreams.....!

It was early morning, Mohan tossed and turned on his bed, and he could hear the distant coo of a bird and the adjoining sound of a female coo…to it.

He thought, ‘Damn, it is only day-break and I am not able to sleep, what has happened to me…I don’t want to get up…the manager is not in today…I can be late to office…Oh! Please doze off….’

No, his mind did not heed neither his sleep…he woke up reluctantly and looked around all was bright and gay…he slipped on his house slippers and then slowly walked up to the sit-out…he looked around a beautiful day and the sun was just brushing off its own laziness….!

He took a deep breath and it had been ages he wondered at the nature with awe….he slowly pulled on his sweat shirt and found the basket ball he had left unattended at the cupboard corner…with it flew a cloud of dust…it chocked his lungs…he coughed a bit and quickly strode out onto the lawn….!

The house was spaced on a 3600 square feet and was artistically done, which donned a basketball sling attached to the top of the wall that spaced the sit-out from the 1st floor of the house.

Hmm…he has lost practice with the throw but still does not know what to do so…he starts nudging the ball…he just throws the ball so hard that it bounces out of his gate and down on to the street…

The sun is bright and up right now, there are crows and birds chirping around and some lazy dogs barking somewhere, the milkman, the paper boy all had finished their rounds…the locality is an abode in heaven with both the sides of the street adorned with big and huge trees spreading their branches and covering the stretch of the street with their leaves and flowers, giving away a celestial fragrance and the flowers that are no more to the twigs had fallen on the ground to adorn the street….!

There is a heavy carpet of flowers in different colors….and it was highlighted by the rays of the light that was passing through the branches from above and looked as if a scene drawn out of the sets of a romantic film…Mohan who came out to pick his ball was just looking at the scenic beauty and the ball was rolling into the street ahead of him…

He is lost in the beauty till a slow cold morning wind blows across his face and it sends a slight shiver through his arms, shoulder and backbone…he just shudders with the chillness…when he sees an angel down the aisle in a dark colored dress….with wavy hair that is uncontrollable to the blowing wind and the hands busy holding on to the bars of the cycle…!

She stops her vehicle and pulls her strands and pushes it behind her ears to hold them tight for sometime…and the rays from the sun fall on her as an spotlight from heaven….the leaves had given away to the pressure of the wind…..she puts a hand to cover her from the light just leaving a single ray peep through her finger making a halo around her….!

Oh! She looked ordinarily extra-ordinary….but she did not stand there forever she cycled past him and did not look back but she smiled at him when their eyes met for a milli-second and he knew….it was the smile that he had to look forward forever….but why him?

His mind reckoned why him….he does not believe anything of this sort and even in movies he said, ‘why it is always an extra -ordinary introduction for the heroine…?’

Nah…it can’t be him who is seeing this feat….it is just a dream…and dreams never come true…what am I doing standing and dreaming a perfect romantic picture scene of heroine introduction….oh! Enough of these ‘Yash Chopra heroines…’ where’s the ball…is, where is it…it just rolled in the front…where it did go….!

Ah! There it is, the stupid ball…how can a ball be stupid…you are stupid…you are the one who threw it….!

Ow! He hit against a stone and stumbled upon it….thud…! the sound was loud…and the pain started flowing into his senses and his back hurt…why is my back hurting….? I fell on my knees…my knees should be hurt…he could not keep his eyes, closed any more…he opened them and found the fan on the ceiling squeaking and running at full speed….!

He was coming into conscious with every turn of the fan blade….he pulled his eyes fully open with an instant and sat up with a bolt…he was on the floor of his room bundled in the blanket he had spread over him last night and he had fallen off his bed…!

He tried to get up and his back ached…but his mind was recollecting the events he saw…he looked at the watch it was past 9o’clock and it was trouble for him at the office if he does not reach it in another few minutes….!

He sets off to his daily chores returning to the mundane life he was in before….in the hurry-burry of his morning…he forgot about the angel he saw…and in whose life does a dream at day-break comes…true!

Has it for any one…?